Epiphany

"When I was a child, I spake as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child: but when I became a man, I put away childish things."
-I Corinthians 13:11




hello friends.

this is my maiden voyage on the s.s. blog, and to be quite honest with you, i'm not exactly sure what to do, but i assume that that's kind of the point. so, from here on out, you can expect my somewhat bizarre outlook on the world outside my window. these are simply my thoughts and observations. i do this not only as an outlet for myself but also to make you all aware of things in the world you might have missed or overlooked, like how terrible the world will be if we don't start loving one another, or how much better the world would be if sarah palin stopped talking. i tend to drop movie quotes randomly in every thing i write, so be on the lookout for them. i don't really pay much attention to length when it comes to writing. it maybe two sentences or two paragraphs, but no matter what, it'll be real. i am not afraid to express myself thanks to the digital courage that the computer has afforded me. oh yeah, one more thing. from time to time you may see red italicized lettering. that's my inner monologue. i sometimes post it if i deem it pertinent to a given blog. okay? is that cool with everybody? okie doke. awesome.

so you guys are probably wondering why i put a big ol' Bible quote up top there before everything else. well, i am a Christian, so that might happen from time to time, but this is for a far different reason. i first heard it as a youth while a mentee at my church, but never did i take a second to really think about what it meant. the other night, i had dinner with member of a group i play in called new brand & l.i.v.e. i ordered chicken fingers for what was probably the six hundredth time in my life. you would think that at 20 i would have outgrown them by now but they're just so darn good...depending on where you get them, that is. then there was this other dish (which escapes me at the moment) that i had never tried but wanted to. i ordered the chicken fingers mostly because it's what i always do and have done for years. but friends, what struck me about this particular plate of food is that it was a big fat reminder of my life in some strange serendipitous way. for years i have been afraid to live outside of my shell. i've become so used to my life following a format that i haven't given much thought to trying something new every once and a while. i suppose it's fear. fear of commitment, fear of forgetting, or even fear that things will change so much that that i can't go back to the way they were and i will have to accept the reality of this origami swan my life has become. our involvement in our worlds becomes deeper and more convoluted as time progresses. if i simply ignore that and follow the brainless lackadaisical ideology that has enveloped me for the better part of the last decade, i will never truly grow up. and i need to grow up. all of us do at some point, i suppose. and this is my time. for far too long i've been sitting around watching and waiting for this pot called life to come to a simmer, but tell me, when has a watched pot ever boiled? i can't just scoot by doing the same thing all the time, which for years has been nothing. i have to try something new. i have to be better at everything in my life. i know i can be but have been far too lazy to even try. so this is a challenge to all who find themselves in the same spot i'm in. let us all be more proactive and somehow find the strength and the impetus to do what needs to get done. hiding and laying around doing nothing is for little boys who have yet for their stones to drop. it is time to stop playing around and get serious. it is time to put away childish things.

......and to think, all this from a plate of chicken fingers.....and they didn't even taste good.....

so that's it for now. hopefully you have caught onto the somewhat odd format of my blog and have enjoyed it. i will talk to you again soon.

goodbye for now. oh yeah, and if i don't see ya, good afternoon, good evening, and goodnight.